My Fears

One of my many fears in life is not death, but for the ones I care and love to not know that they meant something to me.

I fear someday, something happen to me and I never got the chance to tell someone that they crossed my mind once or they were in my thoughts or that I am thankful I met them.
Or thankful to them because of what they have done that sets the next scene for good things I experienced.

Every day, I will tell Nick - "have I told you I love you?"
Nope, I don't think by telling him everyday would dilute the meaning or the significance. But if I don't tell him, he wouldn't know he is indeed very special to me and he really must know that he meant the world to me.

Towards my friends, I showed random appreciation.

I think it is better to give thanks in this manner - just because. Rather than something happen than to realized, I should have, could have or would have tell them they crossed my mind once or they were in my thoughts or that I am thankful I met them.

So friends, don't be surprised if you received random messages from me.

It is probably one of those times that I thought of you or that you crossed my mind or that I am thankful I met you.

Or that I realized life is fragile and I try not to give chances to regret.